I'm a failure . (=

I'm a failure , yes I am .

Yeah , the previous post , wrote that i'm in the first class .

But , this post .. is about : I'm in the second class , not the first class anymore .

I'm not going to tell the reasons , i must keep it as a secret .

Some people know that i'm going to first class , they felt angry and hate .

They used actions to show that they don't want me to go in first class .

Hate me ? Just say out .

Don't use all these lousy actions . Make me more hate eu .

Okay , i already made my desicion . I AM NOT GOING TO THE FIRST CLASS .

I have some goood friends there . I love them .

But i don't want to see some people's face , faham ?

I rather go second class .

Go second class , i will be quiet , quiet and quiet .

beside quiet , what can i do ? Nothing .

Keep let dicipline teacher catch this catch that .

My hair , my ear ring , my finger nail , my shirt , and everything .

What i did ? Sighhhh .

I hate eu , dicipline teacher .

I started to keep many things in my heart .

I don't trust anybody , just trust myself .

Nobody i can trust to , All my friends are - liars .

And i should shut my mouth . Better what also don't say , then good (:

Mama keep scolding me ,

i keep pretend like nothing happen . I just didn't smile .

I keep force myself not to cry in front of her .

I must hold my tears !

Went in the dark dark rooooom , i cried .

I lie on my pillow and cry .

Thanks my pillow . :)

Okay , seriously .... I feel stresssss .

And , i'm currently : emo - ing .

Feeling like killing people or straight away go die .

I want to go Canada ! Sigh .

End post .